from the brain of an arrogant dyke who acts like a fag
[Most Recent Entries]
[Calendar View]
[Friends]
Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in
toasty ghosty's LiveJournal:
[ << Previous 20 ]
| Tuesday, January 12th, 2010 | | 3:48 pm |
while i was drinking coffee and eating lunch, i was reading entries from januaries past, and noticed recurring themes....always lamenting that if i had "more money, better music equipment." i'd be happy. i also wondered if having these things would actually make me happy or if i'd be miserable no matter what. as it turns out, mal and i are finally completely self sufficient [despite how ridiculous it may be i'm still going to knock on wood....call it ocd]. we have more money than we did in rochester, we have better equipment, we're finally getting work on some songs we've wanted to work on but never had the recording capacity to do so. she's in school and got a 4.0 last semester. we are truly working toward our goals and living comfortably in the meantime. my job pisses me off but this is the only thing fucking with me right now. i am content and optimistic. thank goodness i do have the capacity to be a happy person after all. Current Mood:  happy | | 2:39 pm |
yesterday i ordered an electric/acoustic fretless bass and am now waiting for it's arrival. with flatwound strings on it, it will have a sound very close to an upright bass...an instrument i played for 5 years but cannot feasibly afford one of my own. i'm excited. Current Mood:  hungry | | Sunday, January 10th, 2010 | | 12:53 am |
i asked on facebook: which is better - to put up with injustice in order to keep one secure, or to rally against it knowing one may be in danger? i was answered: "A question for the ages, and unfortunately, one for too many people." "i m not sure" "I SAY RALLY!!!!!!!! non violent of course" then i said: what if the injustice is that i was made to take off my pink floyd hoodie during work while no one else on the sales floor had to? they wore a myriad of things, fleece, hoodies, sweaters, some with logos, some without. i was told i could wear only a sweatshirt with a publix logo on it. i counted 8 people at the end of my shift wearing non-publix jackets including people in my department. the real question is, do i really want to spend energy rallying against these douchebags or should i just nod politely and pursue new employment? what i will do, when i done working for these jerks, is send a letter telling them all the things i hate about publix, and then post it everywhere for everyone to read. Current Mood:  aggravated | | Sunday, December 20th, 2009 | | 4:25 pm |
as of 11:11 pm last night, i have existed for a quarter century {ignoring the extra days of each leap year. i don't feel any older, maybe because i've already felt old. people laugh at me when i say i'm getting old, but i've had the - most likely irrational - feeling that i probably won't live to an old age. in other news, i got free admission into the magic kingdom because it was my birthday. when i was 10 or so i couldn't understand why my parents wouldn't take my sister and i to disney world, and now i know why. the cost is astronomical for a place that really has rides that are just about as good as the rides at seabreeze - rochester's tiny little amusement park. and the crowds are horrible. i, like my mother, am extremely irritated by big, rude, pushy, noisy crowds. i'm glad to have gone and had a decent amount of fun while i was there, but it really is not the awesome place i imagined when i was a child. it's a good thing i lost that delusion years ago. i was not disappointed. Current Mood:  cold | | Friday, December 18th, 2009 | | 11:52 pm |
| | Wednesday, December 2nd, 2009 | | 10:17 pm |
i am seriously out of patience. i'm out of patience with the united states. i really don't know how much more of this constant asininity i can take. the united states can go fuck itself. and just in case big brother is actually monitoring us still, don't take that as a threat. i don't have any patience for the fucking psycho muslims either. i hope i can just get out of this country before your holy war goes full force. then i hope all your right wing christians and all you fundamentalist muslims bomb each other into oblivion because i am so sick of the world. there's no sense in trying to make things better. i'll ride out the rest of my time in florida and then i am OUT. Current Mood: so unbelievably pissed off | | Monday, November 23rd, 2009 | | 2:45 pm |
even though i probably don't need it, i've decided to take some naproxen sodium in hopes of relieving the tension in my jaw, which has such a severe case of tmj now that the left side frequently sticks and i have to pop it out with my hands. this, as one might imagine, causes aching on the sides of my head. so i guess i'll give in and medicate. i need to be on my game and keep impressing my boss to make sure i keep getting sufficient hours. such is life. now off to work i go. | | 2:34 pm |
| | Monday, November 16th, 2009 | | 3:05 pm |
i just realized that yesterday i said i'll call chase when he got out of school. yesterday was sunday. i don't know what day if the week it is. that's pathetic. Current Mood: hungry | | Sunday, November 15th, 2009 | | 4:23 pm |
my little brother turns 10 today. i'm slightly sad that i can't be there for him for his birthday, but the thought of riding on a plane is about as appealing as doing shots of hot sauce. it's uncomfortable, not enjoyable, and makes me head hurt. i'll give him a call in a few since he probably just got home from school. i was reflecting on how he was born exactly ten years ago. then it occurred to me that it wasn't exactly ten years ago, since the calender is inaccurate. the obsession with splitting days into 24 hours does not completely reflect the actual length of a day, i remember reading somewhere it's more along the lines of 25 hours. also that a year is something akin to 365 and 1/4 days in length. which is why every four years is a leap year and has an extra day. now i'd have to double check this, and it would require math that due to this headache, i simply can't do right now. but going along with the 24 hour days and 365 of them in a year, my brother was actually born 3653 days ago as opposed to an even 3650. now if i could think right now and felt like looking things up, i could figure out accurately the exact date that would have been 10 complete cycles of the sun since he was born. then again, time is just a measurement, so the thing that really blows my mind is how he's already so big. Current Mood:  contemplative | | 4:10 pm |
 this guy is on tv right now. i always thought he was cool, but it bothered me slightly that his shoulders go above his face. i guess his name is gossamer. Current Mood: hungover | | Thursday, November 12th, 2009 | | 11:30 pm |
Writer's Block: Talking Turkey
we'll make food if we feel like it. i can't "feast" my stomach won't allow it. i'll probably use the internet to bitch about how the english came over and just claimed land that was already claimed for their own like most white people. Current Mood:  annoyed | | Monday, November 2nd, 2009 | | 11:38 am |
orion decided to potty on the carpet again, not even an inch away from the litter box. then he decided to chomp down on a stray q-tip and i had to pull the cotton out of his mouth. i've got a bunch of things to do today. my trip back home was cool. or should i say cold since in was in the 30's the entire time we were there. mal and i had both never been on a plane before, and i was both nervous and excited at the same time. the plane taking off was a cool feeling and there was free satellite radio, which i promptly turned to the jazz station to keep me mellow. flying over florida was nuts because all i could see after a certain height was lakes, and then we broke through the clouds which was an amazing sight. then we hit some turbulence and every time the plane dipped down i could feel a split second of weightlessness which startled me each time. we then prepared to land in baltimore fpor the lay over which looked really cool and night but the circling made my head spin. then on to the secong flight into rochester which for some reason put a lot of pressure on my sinuses and made my head hurt. then my mom picked us up to bring us back to my parents house where my little brother was still awake and waiting for us. my parents allowed me to use their van to drive around rochester. we first got coffee at equal grounds, the gay coffee shop on south ave with mal's grandmother and friend christa. then we got dinner with mal's other grandmother and little cousin. the next day mal grabbed lunch with her dad and chilled with my family before heading out to the haunyted hayride with my friends anna and dan. ..which happens to be a good 20 minute drive into middle of nowhere farmland in the next county which was hilarious as opposed to scary. the downside was a country folk duo playing songs that had nothing to do with halloween and a drunken bitch who nearly got in a fight with us. then back home where my sister and her two guyfriends had recently arrived from their drive up from purchase, ny and we went to vertex and danced a bit. the next morning we all went to brunch with my grandmother and my friend carolyn, took various pictures at my mother's behest and then my dad took us to the airport where we took two unevenful but very loud flights....the particular planes we were on happened to have very loud engines. i sat back listening to techno on satellite with only a minor headache. so that's the extent of it. bow to make more coffee, because a stupid bug landed in my cup. Current Mood:  lethargic | | Tuesday, October 20th, 2009 | | 6:47 pm |
well i was going to write about my trip home but now i found out stupid geico won't just run my fucking liscence again when it's EASY FOR THEM to check if my suspension from that unpaid bill was lifted but IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME to get them the paper work. i don't know what i hate more, profit-hungry insurance companies or badly run bureaucracies. i think what i really hate is the fact that it's a law to have insurance but you MUST buy from a private company. Current Mood:  pissed off | | Thursday, October 8th, 2009 | | 4:27 pm |
vet says the cats are both fine. they have pills and flea treatment so they will be perfectly healthy in a matter of days. | | Wednesday, October 7th, 2009 | | 6:27 pm |
the cats have worms. well, demetria does by i'm sure orion does too. i should have brought them to the vet agaes ago but since they're indoor cats i thought they were ok. i feel like the worls'd worst pet owner. i have no idea how long they've had them and the things i've been reading make me feel even more anxious about it. demetria has been leaving little droplets of blood in the bathroom lately. i'm terrified for her. i'm also worried about us...if they've had them for this long and we're in constant contact with them, even though it's unlikely i'm still worried about contracting them. i've seen too mnay horror stories about parasites on house. they're going to the vet tomorrow. i'm going to ask a million questions and hopefully they're ok. i need a xanax or something. damn. Current Mood:  scared | | Wednesday, September 30th, 2009 | | 11:43 am |
the intense dreams continue, but only a few nightmarish parts in each. i kept having nightmares that my coworker is out to get me, because the bitch is nuts and apparently my subconscious is terrified of her whilst my conscious mind is wary. i also dreamt i was playing a bizarre looking electronic drum kit and the guy who owned it or trying to sell it or something took away the kick pad and insisted i could play the duble bass pedal without the kick pad, and i suddenly felt a great deal of resistance while trying to play it. then he took the sticks out of my hand. i love how my mind invented an asshole to deal with in my dream. then i was about to go swimming in this huge pool and i stepped outside and it was cold. when i stepped out of the house at 10 30 today it wasn't hot. not cold at all, but it wasn't hot. very strange. Current Mood: hungry | | Thursday, September 24th, 2009 | | 12:54 pm |
i had a dream last night that i went to someone's prom, dressed in an ugly tux and i was trying to pass myself off as a man. i kept thinking i nedded to draw on a fake beard or shadow or something. i kept talking in a raspy voice and said "man" and "mother fucker" a lot. then i realized i was still wearing some eyeliner. the dream then changed so i was on some coast and i kept gettimng hit with huge ocean waves, but there was no undercurrent so no one was worried. i some how ended up in a castle where bishops dressed as wizards were going to elect a new pope and i climbed down a rope to get away with one hand as i had a sword in the other. i then had found i was living in an oneonta dorm room where my middle-aged co worker from el salvador also lived and i was punching perfectly round wholes in oreos, chocolate chip cookies and reese's cups. on an unrelated note, i could use a netty pot, or however it's spelled. a measuring glass just doesn't work quite as well. Current Mood: stuffy | | Wednesday, September 16th, 2009 | | 3:02 pm |
muzak - the worst thing ever
first of all, if you've ever shopped in a grocery store in america, you've heard music...either the instrumental shit, or generic pop songs spanning the 50's to modern day. you can hear "for the longest time" followed by beyonce's "halo". the point is, they usually pick the worst songs they can find. there are a few random good or ok songs in there, but much of it grates on the nerves. i found this article and i agree wholeheatedly. http://www.noisefree.org/newsroom/pressrelease-display.php?id=65. it essentially calls for grocery stores to tone down the damn noise. you know what else would help aside from no music and no overhead pages? studio quality silencing pads. these can be as simple as odd shaped foam pieces or carpet/cloth covered wooden appendages that hang down from the ceiling and reduce the head space. do we seriously need to see the factory ceiling? the bare bones of support beams and wires and air ducts? fuck no! high ceilings also waste a ton of electricity since you have that much more space that needs to be lit, heated or cooled. also, if they're going to INSIST on playing music, why can't they switch it up a bit from the banality? this link display's muzak's electronica playlists http://music.muzak.com/music/programs/genre/5/electronica/they've also got reggae, jazz, rock....you could mix up any of these, so that way if one type of music irritates someone the next song will be completely different. also they really need to turn down the treble on these things, and some of the mid tone, because all you get is high pitched resonance. but no, we get "california dreaming" followed by "another cup of coffee". we get easy listening top 40. and don't even get me started on holiday music. someone save us from this madness! Current Mood:  thirsty | | Saturday, September 12th, 2009 | | 7:34 pm |
Writer's Block: The truth is out there ...
hahaha i haven't heard anyone say "bonkers" in ages. the person who came up with this question might be from england. if i'm at a party and someone's talking about ufo's, i usually just assume they're a bit intoxicated and istead of purporting a theory, they end up sounding nuts. especially if it's followed by a "yeah, man." while i am always a bit skeptical on many subjects, there is enough minute details that suggest life from other planets is entirely possible. the question is whether it has attempted to contact, study or acknowledge us. first, the universe is much to large to simply say there's no way there's any life on other planets outside our solar system. second, bacteria has been found on mars which suggests than organic life can exist in other conditions than what we know on earth. third, i watched an episode of nova a while back where astronomers had set up a system that beamed a simple transmission in different frequencies into space and they had picked up a garbleed transmission on a frequency not used by stations around the globe, so they considered it the closest thing they had to give clout to their theories of other intelligent life. it's always an interesting subject. but when a stoned kid starts talking about ufo's, i'm, probably going to think they're "bonkers." Current Mood: headache |
[ << Previous 20 ]
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
childoftheabyss's journal